(credits to the U.S. Fish & Wildlife Service)
so… I’m really beginning to experience the perks (and perils) of becoming an adult.
ever since graduation, I’ve been feeling extremely directionless (as reflected in several of my previous posts) with no sense of purpose. apart from turning 18 and getting to consume alcoholic drinks legally, I haven’t been doing many ‘adult’ kind of activities (get your mind out of the gutter) apart from going for driving lessons (since only ‘adults’ can drive here…) the feel of things since then has always been transitional in nature– I enjoy the freedom of choice of an adult while still having the character and responsibilities of a teen…
…until tomorrow! that’s right; my phase of unemployment (and the feeling like I’m still in junior college even though I’ve left and the new batch of freshies has already arrived)
not one, but TWO of the multiple companies I sent my résumé to FINALLY responded to my queries (thank goodness; it’s been an agonising month) and after the whole application and interview process I managed to land a job 🙂 yay!
I know some might call me crazy, but I’m actually quite excited to start work. I am itching after some kind of positive change in my lifestyle (waking up past noon everyday just to do nothing but eat and watch NCIS isn’t the best thing to do) and I believe getting a job will do just that. have I mentioned that I am excited to start work?
it’s not the whole idea of work that gets me going (I am lazy as fuck) but rather, what it represents. I’m going out into the real world (okay not really; laugh at me now) and getting out of my comfort zone as a student. I have to think for myself instead of being told what to do and I get to make some decisions of my own. I get to learn to become independent and really do something instead of bumming around. the fact that I get a really flexible job that allows me to continue driving lessons, and a really caring boss (or bosses) makes a huge difference– not to mention I get to help students while I’m at it! (beneath this very stoic/tough exterior lies an actual person that just wants to help but doesn’t know how)
the phase of unemployment (and a whole slew of other things) is coming to an end, and another phase is just beginning. I really get to make a difference this time. and the feeling is indescribable.
I know that there’s still a long way to go in adulthood (there’s making it through college and actually struggling to pay the bills and get a job) and I haven’t seen the bulk of things, but I believe that every journey begins with a single step and a little bit of progress is better than nothing.
to quote a favourite band of mine,
“well, I guess this is growing up.”
this, truly, does feel like growing up. I’m a little sad that I don’t get to be a ‘kid’ any more, but life is waiting. =)
“He nods, as if to acknowledge that endings are almost always a little sad, even when there is something to look forward to on the other side.”
― Love the One You’re With, Emily Giffin